I’m wide awake at stupid o’clock and rather than lie in bed thinking vague thoughts and counting down the time I may as well write something, right? So I’ve started a new blog exploring my experience as a 1st generation, UK born, half afro-Guyanese and half Jamaican, black woman. I hope y’all will get involved, leave your comments and posts as I go through this journey.
I am a busy, working mum trying to run a household, have a meaningful career, play an active role in my community and have fun while I’m doing it (I have always liked to party and that has not stopped since becoming a ‘responsible adult’!).
Life is pretty interesting at the moment, with lots of things on the go and lots of exciting new spaces in which I find myself, particularly professionally. However, the thing that is most interesting for me at the moment is identity and the nature of identity.
Many things have changed in my life over the past 18 months, all of which have been positive. I have found myself suddenly close to a small group of women who were not in my life 18 months ago. I have been surprised at how these new connections have grown and I now count some of these women as close friends. Several of these women are African. This has had a deep impact on me. I am like many Black British women of my generation; I lay claim to my Britishness in one sense but in another, have always felt ‘other’. My experience of becoming close with a number of fiercely proud African women has been life-affirming. The closet thing to ‘sisterhood’ I can recall experiencing.
This is certainly a reflection of the personal development journey I have been on in the past 18 months. In a deep conversation with a friend earlier in the year, I began to realise that for the 1st time in my life, I identify as an African more than anything else. Of course my cultural upbringing is important to me and certainly a critical part of who I am. But I also have connected with something that feels deeply fundamental and such an obvious part of me that I am slightly amazed that it has taken the best part of 40 years to find it!
This 1st blog is a commitment to charting this experience and period of exploration and growth.
I do need to go back to bed now!